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Old 10-10-2006, 09:13 PM   #41
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I know no one cares but still,

Today was the LONGEST, TOUGHEST, Yet the most happiest day of my life.

The day started with me waking up at 7, seeing my mom out side talking to her, not making out the words because I was half asleep.. I looked for the "ironed" shirt, all over the house couldnt find it, (was locked in moms office)then I reluctently put on the shirt I was saposed to wear tomorow.

Got ready,bla bla bla, went to my aunts, on the way there stopped at gas station for my sisters cigarettes, she smoked 4-5 on the way there. LESS THEN AN HOUR!! woah..

got there, and the mood was normalish, of coarse everyone was sad, but under the circumstance everyone was there selfs. I met my dads brother, my uncle mark, for the first time in my life(ive met him before, but not at an age i could talk,walk let alone remember). ate lunch, road to the funeral home with my cousin and her bf.

got to the funeral home, EVERYONE stood out side IN FRONT OF THE NO SMOKING SIGN and smoked.. And we saw a butterfly(this will come into play later) they finish smoking and we head inside, all of my aunts and uncles(excluding my "dad") go up first, then some one wanted to go up with me, i didnt go. my aunts cried and laughed(dont know why laughed) then my cousin went up and cried, cam right back upset saying it didnt even look like her. then everyone else went up besides for my cousin bobby, he broke down, bad, with out her he probably wouldnt be alive today, no matter what he did she was always there. he eventually got used to it and went up.

we then saw a dvd, of pictures, and cried alot, and i mean ALOT, their was one picture that was just her, it was of her behind a couch half of her face sticking up with a pink curler in her hair. their was one of her feeding me a bottle as a baby with my cousin nick next to us.

I realized after we calmed down the prayer card was a butterfly, their where fake butterflys on the coffin and pictures of them around her. their is no doubt in my mind that the butterfly we saw before we went in was a sign from her!

her freinds came and a few other non imediate family members came. we went back to the house because the visiting hours wher over. ate dinner went back, I met alot of cousins i didnt know I had, and found out my oldest cousin is 60 years old!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

we then went back to the funeral home again it was a pact house so for an hour and a half i sat out side talking to my cousins wife, about everything and felt a bond with her now.

im leaving out lots of details for time...

and I turned down being a paul berrer because I was scared to, and then I went up to the coughin and i felt something over me, and i told my aunt ill do it if they still need it.

I just hope this brings me closer to everyone! and my dad even closer to his brother and sisters..
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